What do I really need right now?

Thanks to a very generous friend who has negotiated her way through peak hour traffic to pick me up last Thursday and the Thursday, I’ve been able to re-join Weight Watchers and start again.  I know that quite a few people who know me well will be saying to themselves, “Here she goes again. What will be different this time?”

Well, there are quite a few differences already.  I’ve got a Chronic Condition Health Care plan set in place by my wonderful GP which will give me access to an exercise physiologist (a cross between a personal trainer and a physiotherapist).  My GP will be keeping a closer eye on things and the nurse who is part of the practice will keep up with me too.

I am still seeing my wonderful physio as my ankles continue to heal and he and I have been discussing possible exercise options for now while my ankles are still quite wobbly and weak and later when I can do more weight bearing exercise.

I’ve been to the gym and was quietly pedalling the recumbent bike as I had been instructed by the physio when the trainer asked if I would like to join in a weights circuit with three other ladies.  After a bit of encouragement from him, I did join in and much to my amazement, I was able to complete a 45 minute circuit with very few modifications.  It was the most amazing feeling to do that successfully.

I’ve got a great circle of friends who are “in the loop” about my efforts and are encouraging me every step of the way. Eric is right behind me cheering me on and Daniel, who still lacks tact and diplomacy at almost 8, has asked whether my big belly (which he illustrates by holding his arms out wide) to going to shrink up to the size of his belly.  Probably a bit extreme but he is being positive in his own way.

One of my friends is going to join the same Weight Watchers meeting as me so I will be meeting up with her each week.  I can’t say how glad I am about this.  Not only will I get a free pampering session and she a 3 month movie pass due to a membership promotion but I will look forward to seeing someone each week who is truly on my side and has much the same dry sense of humour as myself.

However the number 1 things are weighing in each week (which involves fronting up the the very formidable Carol) and staying for the meeting.  I certainly won’t paraphrase the meeting content here because if you want that you should really go to Weight Watchers yourself. But when we recieve information, we all process it in different ways and take away our own responses and hopefully, action plans.

This week was all about monitoring hunger signals.  We discussed the difference between being so hungry that you would eat almost anything to having eaten so much that you feel like your clothes would burst.  Ideally we should aim for something in between.  That is going to happen for different people in different ways but for me hunger signals are controlled when I eat small amounts often during the day, keep moving and maintain my water intake.  Please excuse me for a moment while I uncap my trusty water bottle and take a big swig.

 

 

 

 

Ah, that’s better.

We have discussed many mantras and saying that we can use to keep our goals in mind and to stay on track.  It was recommended that we have a saying that describes ourselves at a healthy weight in the present tense and includes some tings we can do or have achieved.  Mine is:

I am slim, fit and focussed.

Then I thought more about what would help me to monitor my hunger signals and indeed, lots of other signals from my body and I came up with this:

What do I really need right now?

Some of the answers to that question in the last few days have been:

salad instead of chips

baked fish instead of crumbed fish

more water instead of more coffee

one small dessert that I really liked instead of just eating dessert whenever it was offered whether I really liked it or not

doing my physio stretches

walking a few more steps

keeping up with my pain relief so I could keep up with moving more and healing faster

not staying up for the end of the movie/tv show but going to bed when I needed to

taking a nap during the day when I needed it

doing something pleasurable during the day

talking to people who woud help me with making good choices

So far in one week I have lost one kilo.  But that isn’t really important in the big scheme of things because I have gained so many other really important things.

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Taking Positive Steps

I’m back at work tomorrow and still feeling a bit fragile.  However I’ve done my first group fitness class in years this afternoon – aqua aerobics and lived to tell the tale so it doesn’t appear that I am going to break any time soon.

I saw my wonderful GP yesterday expected her to to be buried under a mountain of paper work from both hospitals.  She had heard from neither!  After some discussion and pushing on my poor sore chest I was diagnosed with Costochondritis  – Tietze’s Syndrome which is described below:

Costochondritis is a condition that causes chest pain due to inflammation of the cartilage and bones in the chest wall. Also called Tietze’s Syndrome, costochondritis occurs when there is inflammation at the junction of the rib bone and breastbone (sternum). At this junction, there is cartilage joining these bones. This cartilage can become irritated and inflamed. Depending on the extent of the inflammation, costochondritis can be quite painful.
This information comes from here and is the best explanation I’ve seen so far.  My GP wrote down the name of what I had because she knew I’s be coming home and googling it.  The nasty thing about it is that the symptoms mimic cardiac symptoms so they have to be well and truly ruled out before it can be diagnosed.  It makes me wish I could have gone from work to my GP but that wasn’t possible at the time.  If, God forbid, it ever happens again I’ll be much less anxious because I know just how healthy my heart really is.
Before I saw her yesterday I went to the gym that I joined in  (ahem) July) and got set up with a basic program.  I was a bit naughty but I explained to my GP and she was fine with it.  I admitted to having high blood pressure and Obstructive sleep apnea but I didn’t admit to the recent chest pain issues because I knew it wasn’t cardiac and I also knew that they wouldn’t let me near the place if their was the slightest suspicion that I might drop over from something.  My blood pressure was in fact brilliant when it was taken yesterday so she was more than happy to write me a little letter for the gym stating that she was very happy for me to begin a graduated program of exercise.  My instructions are to take anti-inflammatories for a week and no heavy lifting for a month and she has written that in the letter to work.
So last night I planned meals and today had a quiet day at home.  I did some knitting and some de-cluttering and then took myself to the library, the chemist and to Coles for some provisions.  I didn’t get the apricot chicken into the crock pot for tonight’s dinner as planned but it is ready to go for tomorrow.  Dh is having a half day to play Bowls so he will get it out of the fridge and put it on at lunch time.
On Sunday I went to knitting as usual and it was like the “Teresa Support Group”.  What a truly wonderful group of women.  They understood.  They said all the right things.  They gave me hugs and encouragement rather than lectures and advice.  I took myself off to Mass late that afternoon as well because I felt in need of some time with God both thanking Him for getting me this far and asking for strength to move ahead.  It was also the day that Mary MacKillop became Australia’s first Catholic saint.  Praying, singing and receiving the Eucharist all felt so right.  It was like coming home.  I obviously need the spiritual health overhaul as well as the physical one.
I’ve got my clothes out for tomorrow, lunch planned and dinner organised.  I’ve asked for dh to pick up boys so that I can go to the gym do my weights (very carefully) and some cardio after work.  The house is still messy but I’ve got most of the clothes ironed (by Mum) and it is pretty clean (once again thanks to Mum).  Most importantly I’ve scheduled everything for the next week and put it all up in the kitchen so everyone can be “on the same page”.
After massive fights on Sunday between the boys I have also overhauled (or rather created) a set of guidelines for Wii and Computer use which are working spectacularly well for both them and me.  But more about that in a later post as I need tocatch some ZZZZZZZZZs before I go back to work tomorrow.  I’m not looking like the lady in the picture here but it is something to aim for I suppose!